November 7, 2018

No Peace in This Mind

Another mid-term election came and went yesterday, and we finally get a bit of a break from the hounding political commercials, survey calls, and orders to exercise our American right to vote!  Hopefully we will have a couple of months off before the dreaded 2020 presidential campaign truly gets going.

Several contentious issues were on the ballot here in Colorado, including a few tax proposals to fund transportation and education, some minor updates to modernize language in the state constitution, new redistricting processes, and a proposition (112) initiated by a group called Colorado Rising for Health and Safety.  This was to require that any new oil and gas fracking rigs be required to set back at least 2500 feet from any homes, schools, hospitals, and waterways.

Weld County, just east of us, has an invasive network of infrastructure related to fracking operations, and there have been issues with water quality getting worse going back at least five years - including one neighborhood showing that they could light the tap water coming out of their kitchen sink on fire!  Respiratory health issues have been on the rise in the area, which have been tied to the chemicals and debris related to the fracking, and there have also been more than 15 unfortunate explosions in the past year that have injured citizens and workers, and taken out homes that exist above this network of underground pipes transporting pressure and water and oil back and forth. 


Overall, I understand that oil and gas operations account for nearly 7% of the state economy.  But the impact I see it having on my community is very negative, and this measure would have imposed some limitations on that potential danger.  I don't know if this is the best solution to the problem - if such a thing is possible, but of all the options on the table at the moment, I think this could make a tangible difference.

The measure failed, 43% in favor versus 57% against.

The current regulation is 500 ft, and existing rigs would have been allowed to continue operation as they are.  However, the Oil and Gas Commission did everything in their power to halt this progress.  The first step was to post a companion ballot issue that would compensate them for any losses that might be incurred should Prop 112 pass.  This amendment (74) would add vague language requiring the state government to compensate anyone who owned property that was reduced in value by any government decision or action.  For example, say a corporation owned an acre of land that would potentially provide access to an oil field, then the government enacted the regulation requiring a 2,500 ft setback, which meant that the company would no longer be able to use that acre of land to access potentially millions of dollars of oil.  The state would then owe the company for all of the potential oil they no longer had viable access to. 

Once 112 was approved and on the ballot, the fossil fuel industry pumped almost $32 million into campaigns driving opposition to Proposition 112.  Another $12 million was spent promoting Amendment 74.  That's $44 million just invested in two state-wide issues.  What else could have been done with that money if it had been invested in state infrastructure, supporting education initiatives, or improving the environment.  Really, anything other than manipulative television and radio spots would have been much more productive.

The main investor in these endeavors was Protect Colorado, a state issue committee registered for the sole purpose of opposing the "safer setbacks measure."  Over half of their funding came from just four organizations - Anadarko Petroleum(Texas-based), Noble Energy(Texas-based), PDC Energy(Colorado-based), and Extraction Oil & Gas(Colorado-based).  Beyond their direct contributions, Noble produced television commercials throughout October urging voters to reject the amendment which they then paid to air directly, but claimed to the FCC that they were not political in nature, and withheld them from campaign finance disclosure filings.  Most of the propaganda opposing the measure was produced by coalitions with intentionally misleading names, like Colorado Rising Action and Coloradoans for Responsible Energy Development.  Their ads and billboards falsely claimed that 112 would remove millions of jobs from the state, or somehow cripple rural communities spread throughout the scenic mountains we so adore.  In line with our national information distribution, these misleading soundbites easily manipulated the uninformed population.

To compare, barely $3 million was raised to support Prop 112, most of which was donated by grass roots efforts garnering $50-$500 donations from private citizens.  The largest contribution provided less than a quarter of the fund, coming from the non-profit Food & Water Watch.

These numbers don't even account for donations to candidates who support the oil and gas agenda.  More than $1 in $5 of DISCLOSED donations to all statewide campaigns and political groups this year came directly from a fossil fuel corporation.  But what about the undisclosed contributions that happen - both under the table, and on the air right in front of us?  The impact private financial influence has over our 'democratic' society is mind-boggling.

When will any of the elected leaders who claim that campaign finance reform is a necessary priority take action?  I fear that because we have allowed the system to open itself up to the 'voices' of corporations and billionaires, we will never be able to combat the dark money that has our system tied and bound.  To be re-elected, they rely on the existing system - should they make any efforts to adjust it, they will not have another term to impact any other changes.

When my angst gets to a certain boiling point, which it has been simmering at for a while now, I start looking for something I could personally do that would impact any of the things that make me angry.  Aside from running for office and beating my own head against that brick wall - which I definitely do not have the spine for - the next thing that makes sense is to throw up my hands and invest in a lovely piece of property in France or maybe in Costa Rica, where I could dial back the pressure, find a hospitality job, and focus on other more important aspects of being human like seeking the perfect red blend or educating ecotourists about reducing our footprints on this planet.  Doesn't that sound delightful?



But where would that really get me?  Perhaps my blood pressure would go down in the short term, but it would not impact the negative trends seem to be happening all around us.  And my tax money would still be contributing to the bottom line of already wealthy individuals manipulating the government, unless I were to completely renounce.

At the moment, no options feel like a positive change.  Any advice?  Any wisdom out there about how to continue working to build the kind of world I want to live in, when everything around me seems to find value in things I can't personally support?


August 4, 2018

Everything is Almost Perfect Here

I had an epiphany this week that has motivated me through several tasks, which I want to share:  Done is better than perfect!

Pareto's principle tells us that 80% of our results are produced by 20% of our efforts.  So within that 20% of effort, what is the difference between almost-perfect, and almost-almost perfect?   For me, quite a bit of time and procrastination - not necessarily improvement.  I don't think of myself as a perfectionist, since I don't really ever think there is a state of 'perfect.'  I do constantly doubt the done-ness of my work - and am always trying to raise the bar, thought - maybe there's a bit of perfectionism in there somewhere, driving me crazy.

This week I've been working on learning to back off and be satisfied with the second or third draft, as opposed to tweaking and re-tweaking and waiting until the morning to re-read and re-tweak.  Done is much better than perfect! It's a bit nerve-wracking for me, but the relief of being able to check the task off of my list is so much better than the weight of having it continue to hang over my head.

So for now, I'm adopting the mantra, and we'll see if it continues to drive forward momentum.


February 14, 2018

Broken Hearts Make it Rain

This morning I attended the Business Women's Leadership Group hosted by the Boulder Chamber.  The theme(fitting for Valentine's Day) was "Love Yourself & Your Heart," and featured a panel of speakers offering advice about heart health, stress management, work-life balance, sleep and nutrition.  People asked for advice about everything from "How can I better prepare for an appointment with my cardiologist or GP to maximize our time together," to "Why am I awake for an hour in the middle of every night," and "How can I tell whether I'm just cranky today or if I'm suffering from actual anxiety?"  The speakers each had a unique perspective with helpful tips about what it takes to feel balanced and be healthy, but none of the advice they offered was newsworthy or revolutionary.  Sleep more, eat whole foods as much as you can, and stay active(even a minute of walking around your house to break up bouts of sitting qualifies as "activity!")  All good reminders!  Overall, I very much enjoy BWLG events, and the turnout this morning was no exception.

However, my experience of the whole conversation was shaded by an experience I had yesterday, which I feel is an indication of why it's easy to bring a group of 60 women together to talk about why we need more sleep, healthy activity, and positive nutrition.  I met with a client who breezed into the conference room a few minutes late and looking very flustered.  As she settled down I offered to take a minute if she needed some time to get centered, and she burst into tears.  She had come from a meeting with her director(also a female leader in her company), who had just told her that she was not living up to her salaried position, because she wasn't responding to emails after dinner, and hadn't put in enough time on the weekends lately.  This woman has a fierce work ethic and more integrity than most I've had the privilege to collaborate with.  Hearing about someone being disappointed that she had been spending time in the evenings with her husband and two small children instead of responding to after hours work requests?  My heart broke for her! 

To me, a salary means that I will put in as many hours as it takes to get the job done.  During conference weeks, I can easily put in back-to-back 17-hour days that are exhausting.  But there are weeks during the summer or in the middle of ski season when I don't have deadlines, and get to take a half-day to go for a hike or spend a random Wednesday on the slopes with my dad.  Unfortunately, this is not the first time that I have encountered a manager who has the expectation of "salaried" employees to be accessible 24/7, and I think this is a sad factor contributing to our current society. 

The panelists this morning spoke about taking care of yourself in order to be the most productive person you can be, particularly as women attempting to thrive in professional environments.  But how can we as a culture move away from the constant urgency that surrounds us?  Feeling tethered to our email accounts and our cell phones is not the answer to living a balanced and healthy life.  No matter our gender, we have to set boundaries as individuals and focus on working within our limits.  This is a critical step when we make commitments to others - for work, family, or personal obligations.  I can work on that, and you can work on that.  But it will take a community working together to respect ourselves and our potential before the societal norms begin to shift, and I'd like to see the impacts of that change sooner rather than later.